1 / 30 : through the looking glass.

back at it again. 30/30. this should carry me back to vandy, if i keep it up. i plan to keep it up.

through the looking glass.

this conversation

is beyond overdue 

and maybe the overwhelming

scent of honesty in the air

has us hunched over our laptops

brows knitted

pecking away 

our versions of the bigger picture

that we still keep in a cracked frame

on our nightstands

we've been antagonists for too long

two princesses at odds in different kingdoms

fighting over the same land

as if it were sacred. as if it was

blessed

and i dont know what has gotten into me

this honesty that makes me want to

take months of inner thoughts

and hurl them out for your approval

or disapproval but this sickness

called the truth 

i need an antidote quick before

i say some shit that is so real that 

i surprise you that

i surprise everyone that

i surprise even 

myself

or maybe this is what i needed

to get all of this disease out of me

wipe myself clean 

and lick these wounds

sign off of the internet

set the laptop down and 

readjust the looking glass

i've been peering out of

so i can finally see

so we can finally see

past the seemingly insurmountable

hurdle that 

he 

used to be