what hurts the most.

what hurts the most
after being so close
is that in my heart i know
things will never be the same again.

and right now we can talk
and smile and say hello
be cordial and exchange niceties
but it's not good enough.

i want you to be happy
no matter what and you seem
to feel this way with her so
i'm happy for you.

but the fact you can't make
room for two women in your life
that love you differently, but
love you all the same -

i'm tired of writing about you.
i want to delete this post.
the fact that i still give a damn,
i guess. that's what hurts the most.