13 / 30 : april showers.

so it's been a few days since i wrote something legit. my mother was in town, my best friend probated, and in general, things have been wild. but here we go :

april showers

today was bipolar

pouring one second

sunny the next

but it seemed like no better time than

the present

to make the past

new again

and no one will ever understand

just exactly when or how

things fell apart but

everyone wants to give

their two cents

and if i sat and added up

everyone's two cents

i'd be sporting prada loafers

too

but the fact that its april

and things that were buried

can blossom

not into the same flower

but something like it

gives me hope

that this extended metaphor

for this unfortunate circumstance

too

could eventually bloom

lately.

"he makes me feel so good/

better than i would by myself/

or if i were with somebody else"

-paraphrased from T-Pain's "Can't Believe It"

Lord give me the strength to

look past those who lied to my face

forgive those who failed me

pretend to ignore their hurtful comments

save myself from their devilish ways

distance myself from those who don't matter

love myself really and truly above all others

and Lord, if You can,

let me be open to the blessing

of new people wanting to be in my life

especially him, sleeping peacefully,

as if we've known each other

for all time