in the woods

these days i feel like

im all alone

and next year

i'll get a big big room

biggest room on campus

more space to be alone

and next year 

i'll be lsat prepping

and application writing

and internship begging

in a corner of central library

all alone

and after its all said and done

tassel turned to the right

i'll pack up and head out

to the real world

whatever that is

all alone

and i know that everyone says

that we'll be together

every step of the way

but here i am

in the middle of the woods

forgot my way in

dont know my way out

and im

all alone

a title-less work.

so im sitting here in rand

waiting for probably the 3,000th meeting

this calendar year

i wish i was exaggerating

people watching and shit.

yo, i'm finished

i feel myself watching the

people who i actually gave a damn about

with a detached reservation

and watching the people

that i would have given

the shirt off my back for

off from a distance

with no remorse, 

with no remorse

i feel like im drowning

in a whirpool of worries and

lack of empathy and sympathy

that i've concocted 

and i'm too tired

and too frustrated

to figure out how to swim

with my head above water